I’ve been reading about a writer who had tried every meditation practice known to man and found them unsatisfactory. He finally gave up on them and “took no special attitude”. To his amazement this “letting go” freed him. As he said, in throwing away these expectation he seemed “to throw myself away as well”. He felt that ” I owned nothing, not even a self, and that nothing owned me. The whole world became as transparent as my own mind. The ‘problem of life’ simply ceased to exist, and for eighteen hours I and everything around me felt like the wind was blowing leaves across a field on an autumn day”.
(quoted in Deepak Chopra, Ageless Body, Timeless Mind, 1993, pp.297-8).